lifes beautiful...

...its raining!!...monsoons are almost ard the corner....yippy!!..and lifes beautiful!.....

The season i sooo love has set in...and oh! my god...with what a bang......it has been thundering the whole day with lightining streaking the very grey sky...a sight to behold...wow!....

I did today wat I love doing the most...walked the hajiali dargah path with waves splashing on either sides...it is one of the most cherished feelings....where nothin else should matter...but this time things had changed...a lot mattered!....I was with a firang uncle of mine.... and the dirty water of our seas...was very embarassing...so was the pityful sight of plethora of beggars alongside the path....I felt bad as an Indian....but more I was ashamed of myself....as a person... a person who has a shelter over her head and more than two square meals a day....it was a terrible feeling ...inequality was staring in my face....and thoughts running through my mind..... "lifes got to be more than all of this".....yes, tats what I kept sayin to myself over and over again......tried my best to convince my heart...though my head had already convinced me soo....I dont know....

I believe lifes beautiful...I hope everyone believes so....I hope I can do my best....and so can all the rest.....

Hmm...pitter patter rain drops........

long ago....

...long ago i wrote a blog...n thn forgot all abt it....nah....didnt forget it....jus got a bit complacent.,.....no....not the rite word.......LAZY!!...yea...... but not any more....back frm a totally refreshin trip.......it was beautiful...nice....and COLD!.....but will write abt it later.....jus a bit bored to do it now.... ha!......

and the thought creeps in...

.....really tired....end of another set of exams...no more studyin for another 5 months.....but somehow all i can feel is a buzz...i dont know why.....i might be the only odd one out....but xams leave me motivated.....!!... ....no...i am not mad..nor crazy....and i doubt nyone will ever call me a nerd..... ...its jus tat exams take sooo much out of u...in one single week u tackle all of those huge books....so called important notes and watnots but at the end...u still pull through...tats whn the "only if" thought creeps in.....tats whn it leaves u thinkin abt wat could have been...wat would have been....and the doors of possibilites so endless and mindnumbing open up.... ... thats the exact juncture whn u derive all the possible motivation to STUDY.....but surprise! u have none.....and thats whn u start spendin hours makin timetables of decidin how to spend ur holidays...!!.......and whn all this happens.....u know u have arrived............its the summer break!! ...the one which u soooo deserve!...